Thursday, September 30, 2010

Numerology and the Tarot: Six ( 6 )

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Coming out of the broom closet: Are you in or out?

As I return to my practice and devote myself to this lifestyle, I am often confronted with the decision to disclose or not to disclose my spiritual beliefs and practices. In my 20s, my response to this issue was to loudly decry any opposition and flaunt my heathen ways. Now, a more tempered 30 something, I find myself much more reticent about sharing my spiritual beliefs with others. And there are many reasons why.


There are just some things that don’t go over so well around the water cooler and in order to maintain my neutrality and professional authority in my job, well, disclosure isn’t such a great idea.

However, that said, I can’t help but ask why. I have a colleague who proudly wears her cross around her neck, clearly identifying as Christian, and another who is Jewish, is absent for all the high Jewish holidays and is active in her community. I, on the other hand, play the neutral agnostic card in these discussions, shying away from any marker of religion.

I have come to the conclusion that there are 2 reasons that I don’t announce my beliefs:

Because I actually kind of hate having religion flaunted in my face (and I will freely admit that this stems from years of heated debate with Christians and a general sense of anger towards Christianity’s hypocrisy (which is different than saying all Christians are hypocrites) towards tolerating others’ religions). And because the fluffy bunny new age pagan identity that is so prevalent out in society makes me cringe at the thought of being taken in such a way. I want to be taken seriously in life and maintain the certain amount of professional credibility that I have been able to carve out for myself in my career.


My extended family and their community are very, very, very Christian. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t particularly care about their faith, other than to say that I respect their beliefs and love my partner enough to not want to cause undue/unneccessary family woes when there is no need to do so.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

how to choose a magical name.

I'm on a name hunt. Yup, that's right. I'm looking for my "magical" name. And this search has prompted a lot of questions on my end. I mean, I want to choose the right name. The name of something I wish to take on and embody.

Here are the questions I've come up with:

Do you want to take on the traits of an element, season, flower, or goddess? Or something else entirely?

Are you in need of strength, compassion, balance?

Are you interested in a popular name, or something more obscure?

Is it important that the name be of someone or something that is real, or are you more drawn to a name that is fictional and has a long literary history?

Does the name ring true to you?

And finally, have you sat on the name for a bit of time, just to be sure that it really is a right fit?

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

canning the harvest

Although I'm a bit leary of glorifying traditional gender roles or romanticizing the past, I am very interested in gettting back to basics and taking charge of my place in the food chain (read: outside of the overly commercialized, processed realm of the grocery store).

For a long time I was a poor starving student who just never had time to try to green-i-fy her life or celebrate the seasons by immersing myself into the rituals that come with the turning of the wheel. But this year, I am proud to say, that I have finally managed to find the time and conquer my fears and can some of this year's harvest.

First I started with raspberry jam. It was easy, but I overcooked it so it didn't go so well. I promptly avoided any other canning until 2 weekends ago, out of fear of botching another batch of anything I made.

But no worries, I braved the world of tomato sauce making and it went well. 35 jars of my own tomato sauce later, I have a newfound appreciation for all the work our ancestors did (be it our mothers or our grandmothers, or even further back). Canning isn't hard, per se, but it's time consuming!

On the other hand, a batch of homemade pizza, with homemade tomato sauce and fresh veggies from our garden might have been one of the highlights of my summer. Eating the fruits of my own labour filled me with a great sense of accomplishment. And I love the sense of feeling connected with the food on my table.

Monday, September 6, 2010

the things we know and the things we need explained

Do you ever get surprised by the things people don't know? Things that seem common knowledge to you, particularly in a field of life you're interested in, end up being things that others don't seem to be aware of. Because I do... I guess I tend to take some of my knowledge for granted and forget about the fact that there was a time that the things I know had to be learned.

As I return to a pagan practice, immersing myself in books, podcasts, websites, etc, I am struck by how often simple concepts are clarified and defined for a target audience that I'd assume would understand such things. Don't get me wrong, there are times when I come across info that is unfamiliar to me, so I sit between both ends of the spectrum, it's just that I get thrown sometimes by some of the things that need explaining. It's a reminder of where I am on the path and where I came from versus where I am going.

Even though I am only returning to the path after years away, thus feeling like a newbie all over again, I'm reminded that I spent a lot of time learning about this path years ago and its information that I've never lost. I guess that I'm less of a newbie than I give myself credit for. On the other hand, this path is an experiental path... thus I'm still learning.