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Ok, so I read a fair amount of blogs but surpringsly few of them are actually pagan related. No, most of the blogs I follow are craft (as in arts & crafts) related.
So here's the thing, one of the things that I've started really noticing and wondering about it the predominance of Christian crafty bloggers out there. Seriously. Are there no pagan crafters? No pagan scrapbookers? Show me a damn sabbat themed scrapbook page already! Seriously!
And what I wonder about even more is the fact that all these crafty Christian blogs are making me see the USA in a completely different light. Once upon a time I thought the states was just a lot like us here in Canada, but I'm starting to wonder more and more if this is true. Or rather, now that I've moved around a bit in Canada, I wonder if maybe life on the west coast (Canada and the U.S.), is just generally more new agey, spiritual, and by extension, liberal, whereas other parts of both countries are more tradition and/or Christian?
Anyways, for all that, I just wonder about the paucity of pagan crafty bloggers out there (or perhaps my poor search skills!). For all the artsy pagans out there, I can't seem to find that many interesting creative pagan blogs.
What I find in abundance however, are blogs written by crafty Christians or Mormons. What about the artsy Muslims? Hindus? Or Atheists? I know they're out there! They have to be. So what gives?
Are we just not blogging about our crafts? Or are they, like mine, hidden away from the pagan blogosphere because I keep my pagan life anonymous and my crafty life public? And if that's the case, what are the consequences of that given that I personally don't ever talk about my faith on my public blog? I don't do this in an effort to respect my in-laws and in an effort to not offend my readers (many of whom are not pagan and may be uncomfortable with my pagan practices).
But I have to admit that recently, this division of self has started to make me fairly uncomfortable.
After all, how does it affect my values? How does it impact my practice?
I consider myself as being someone who lives her life with a great deal of integrity, yet this division of private/public often puts my sense of integrity into question and makes me ill at ease with the compromises I've made for my in-laws (which I do out of love for my husband), my job (because I work in education and I believe that it is very important to be a neutral educator - or at least as neutral as one can be), and my privacy (because one never knows how your life will be construed online and I've heard enough horror stories from fellow bloggers to know to play it safe).
While I know that following a mystery tradition can sometimes get complicated in the modern world, as I age I see the ways in which my younger self would have be navigated (and did navigate) this path so very differently than I do today (not that I'm particularly old, mind you).
All in all, I am more cautious and discrete than I used to be, which is odd given that I am far more comfortable with who I am now than I was at 20. But I can't help but wonder sometimes, am I the norm or the exception? And if I'm a norm, than what impact does that have on the larger pagan community if I retreat behind the safe veil of online anonymity? Be it on our artistic development or otherwise?