Do you tell yourself this? Cause I know some days I do.
I'm not a great artist. I'll never be the next Rembrandt or Dali. Nor am I a great writer. I don't have the self discipline to write those novels that are percolating in my brain, no matter how great the ideas might be. My list of things and ideas to create will always be longer than my actual creations.
And because of this, I often let myself feel as though my creativity has no real worth.
And because of this, I watch my amazingly talented, creative friends, dismiss their creations as mediocre, not good enough, or a frivolous hobby.
Here's the thing though. I think we live in a society that teaches us that we have to excel at something in order for it to have worth. That effort and merit are not enough. Earnest art, albeit touching, can never be true art. And if we don't have those skills right away, we dismiss our efforts as lacking talent, always conveniently forgetting that a grand pianist doesn't get to be grand without years of practice. Why are we so hard on our creative selves? Why do we internalize such harmful narratives?
Here's the thing: not only do I think these narratives are toxic to our fragile creative selves, I think they're BIG FAT LIES! Yup. That's right. I might not be the next Monet. But why would I want to be? I'm not Monet. I'm me. And maybe my art will never be accoladed like Van Gogh's, but then again, I still have both ears and receive about as much recognition in my daily life as he did in his!
We are all familiar with the idea that it's the journey, not the destination, that truly matters. So why doesn't the same hold true for our creative endeavours? Every time that I pick up the paint brush, start typing in this blog space, journal, cut, clip, photograph, it is an expression of the divine. The goddess is afoot in all of the art that I create, because it serves a greater purpose than just "art for art's sake;" it is a meditation of the human process and by extension a representation of the divine within us.
So every time "imposter complex" rears it's ugly head, I remind myself that I am a creative person. That my creativity is good enough. And that creativity is a celebration of the divine.
So celebrate damn it!
CELEBRATE your sweet, soul searching, goddess loving CREATIVE self!!!