Wednesday, September 28, 2011

pagan art journaling {week 35}

This week's prompt: predictions for the year ahead

I don't know about you, maybe it's because I was a student for so long before going to work in a school, but I always associate the fall with a time of new beginnings and fresh starts. Which is why, for me, it's great that the fall also marks the end of the first year or my year long meditation practice. My recent time away from my meditation has made me appreciate it all the more and has given me a few insights about what may be coming up in the year ahead. 

Of course, you never really know what will be, but sometimes the past helps you have a sense of what may be ahead. 

For me, I'm pretty sure it's a lot of hard work but really rewarding work if I stay focused!

What do you think will happen in the year ahead? What are you wishing for in the next year?


Monday, September 26, 2011

this week I am

So this past week I took a break from my daily practice. I know, I know. I was just on vacation, what the hell, right?

Yeah, well, what can I say… vacations make getting back into routines a bit challenging!


Actually though, the break turned out to be a good thing because it made me realize a few things about the influence my practice has on me in my life. And it’s greater than I thought it was. So that’s a good thing to know!

Friday, September 23, 2011

practical magic blog party

Ok, so in honour of the Practical Magic movie and blog party (because the movie is totally one of my guilty pleasures), I made an inspirational mini jewellery box.
The box is an upcycled box that I found at a Value Village and whitewashed, sanded, whitewashed again…
A little closer look:
It was fun and I’m looking forward to hiding some of my magical pieces away in my new special magical jewellery box!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

pagan art journaling {week 34}

This week's prompt: letter to the divine

At this point in your practice, what would you say to the gods if you wrote them a letter?


Monday, September 19, 2011

this week I am

  • So much stuff my brains hurt! 3s, spirits, paradoxes. Imagination vs Reality. Big stuff. Also, what colour am I gonna paint my new craft room when we move. So little stuff too.
  • But mostly work stuff. Disabilities, Diversity and video making projects. Have I mentioned lately, now that work politics have settled, how much I love my job? Cause I do. I love working in education. I love seeing students grow and flourish. I love being a part of an individual's life in such an awe inspiring way. And I love that I get to use technology in order to teach and realize projects that help students think and self-actualize. Yes, I love my job! I meet amazing students every day (even in and amongst the schiezers). Every day students challenge me to see the face of the gods in them and at work through them. It's an amazing microcosm of the universe!

Feeling & Realizing:
  • More grounded and zen. Which is good. Yay for zen!
  • Feeling a bit guilty for utterly failing in my 30 days of yoga challenge. But c'est la vie. Shit happened, I'll try again a little later!
  • That I'm about to complete my year and a day training with my coven. (yes, I know I just talked about how much you share and don't share with others in a way that some of you took to mean that I am a solitary, but I'm not and I'm sorry if that got lost in translation. After years of going it alone, I am now one of those people who can say that sometimes there is truth to the idea that when the student is ready, the teacher will emerge. I'm incredibly blessed to have a community that is becoming family to me). But wow. I've spent a lot of time in the last months thinking about this moment. About initiation. Wondering if it's what I really wanted or not and ironically, somehow, the chaos of my father's death helped me clarify what I wanted in some very real and tangible ways. I'm excited. And nervous. And excited. And a little scared. But mostly just excited! (I think I may have also had too much coffee today).

Planning & Creating:
  • More Mexican vacation minibook pages
  • This week's pagan art journaling prompt. What to do, what to do... What is closest to me right now... So many ideas!

Viewing, Reading:
  • Haven (tv show). I'm seriously addicted to shows about paranormal shit. Seriously. Especially cause this one occasionally goes all meta and makes references to xfiles. Yeah, that rocks!
  • ABC of Witchcraft 
  • Chicken Qabalah. Yes, still for both of these books!


Friday, September 16, 2011

Mexican Adventures mini-book


So I decided to try my hand at making a mini album/scrapbook of my trip to Mexico and share some of it with you. I like the idea of using an old book and up-cycling it, particularly because this one is called “Race around the World”. I know it has nothing to do with paganism, but I could probably find some link, you know, having to do with Mayan culture and prophecies, or nature, so something… so let’s just go with that… yeah!


Us, on Paradise beach, jumping for joy:


I had this package of travel quotes that I’ve been sitting on forever and so I am going a little overboard just trying to use them!

Bonding with the local wildlife on our trip to a Mayan village and the Cenote:


And last, but not least, some cactus graffiti!


And most of these (except for the 1st two, all come from one day of adventures)!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

what do you share with others?

These days I have a lot of spiritual stuff going on in my wee little cranium and I’m finding it challenging to articulate my thoughts with others about spirituality lately …

In fact, during my vacation with my best friend, I actually had a somewhat heated discussion on this topic. She’s frustrated that I don’t really talk about my training and spirituality with her but I find it hard to talk to her about it because so much of it is stuff she can’t really relate too.

Her response: “just because I’m not doing it, doesn’t mean I can’t understand it.”

But here’s the thing. I don’t know that she can really understand it. She can listen. And give feedback. But since I so often end up feeling like her feedback/response reveals that she hasn’t really grasped the nuances I’m trying to convey, I just end up feeling like we’re having 2 different conversations with me explaining, rationalizing, qualifying, etc. So now I tend to avoid the topic because it just becomes a one sided conversation with too much of an uneven balance.

And sometimes, well to be honest, it just feels like to much work to teach first in order to have a conversation about a given topic. Sometimes I just want to talk to someone who already has a framework to understand what I’m working on or puzzling out. I teach all day and there are days that I just want to leave my teacher’s hat to the side and have a shared dialogue or be taught. Sometimes it’s just draining to be the one who is always giving more in the conversation in terms of knowledge and inspiration.

On the other hand, maybe I do her a disservice and I prevent the gods from using others to teach me things because of this. But I can find it very hard to share the revelations, discoveries, or practices (sensations, progress, and road blocks) with others, particularly those who have no experience or context to base their listening/reactions upon. Its one thing to talk about guided meditation or your study of mythology, but another thing entirely to start debating the theoretical nature of Goetic spirits (are they good, evil, should you explore or leave them alone, etc) or the subtle differences in energy you felt in last week’s practice that felt like a fantastic breakthrough, only to have the gods knock you back on your ass and ignore you this week. You know?

How do you deal with these issues? Are they issues for you? Some days I love my path, and others, well I find it a bit alienating because of this. What about you?


Wednesday, September 14, 2011

pagan art journaling {week 33}

this week's prompt: growth

What prompts growth in your world? How do you react to change? 

This past year has been a big year of change and growth in my world, spiritually, emotionally, career wise, etc, etc. It's been a year of evolution. But as I recently mentioned, the shit sort of hit the fan, just as I was starting to feel more at peace with where things were about to go in my life. A year of meditation and almost daily practice (I know, I can hardly believe it myself sometimes... but it's been a struggle, I won't deny it) have brought about some interesting self-realizations and questions.

But just as I was starting to feel like things were settling in and becoming clearer... utter chaos! But then, because life is like that, I came across this amazing Tibetan Buddhist idea that everything goes wrong in order to get you focusing on something else and out of the way in order for something great to be born in your life. And I just loved that thought. What a beautiful way of thinking about the destruction of the tower the creates fertile new ground for growth.


Monday, September 12, 2011

wading out of the muck...

So it's been a while. Things have been busy. I've been away. Yadda, yadda, yadda.

Curious to know more about what's been going on with your's truly? Be forwarned, things have been messy in Faye land.


Here goes:

I moved my baby brother out of the house. After a little over 1.5 years of him living with us and getting his shit together, we have successfully reached the point where he is capable of going back to school and building his own life again. Depression, anxiety, coming out of the closet, short term memory problems related to being in a coma, and learning to cope with ADD as a student :it's been a long haul getting him back to a place where he is confident and autonomous. So this September marks a huge milestone in his life and a turning point in my marriage, in that my husband and I were only married 3 months before he moved in with us. It's nice to be able to just be us again. And it's nice to see my brother out in the world, chasing his own dreams.

My very good friend with Cystic Fibrosis has been struggling with meds for the past year and was in need of a break away from things and a good pick me up after being on some rather brutal and draining treatments. So we booked, 3 weeks ago, totally spur of the moment vacations to the Mayan Riviera in Mexico. As a teacher it was a terrible time to go on vacation, but I managed to work things out and so we flew off to Mexico for a week in the sun last week. (Let's not even talk about the fact that our down payment is due mid Sept for our house).

Of course, life being ironic and all, the trip that was meant as a morale boosting adventure for my friend, ended up beng a much needed break for me too. It was like the gods knew what was coming my way and the universe set me up for the time away that I needed.

First, work politics exploded. Then my car broke down, twice. I love my little blue lovebug, but damn is she a high maintainence car! And then, my biological father died.  I'll spare you the details beyond the quick run through but suffice to say that the time away was much needed!

So last week I enjoyed some quality time with one of my nearest and dearest, while doing:

  • ziplining through the jungle
  • atvs
  • swimming in a cenote
  • seeing a ginormous tarantula in the bathroom in said jungle
  • visiting Mayan ruins like Coba & Tulum
  • visiting a rural Mayan village and watching a monkey steal chiclets from the car and then eat them
  • swimming in another cenote.
  • seeing another tarantula on the road!
  • snorkelling
  • sailing day trip
  • swimming with a shark (which is totally cruel... had I known how bad it was I would never have done it)
  • eating new Mayan (vegetarian) cuisine (which was yummy but totally unlike anything I'd eaten before)
  • watching a fire show
  • beach, drinks, swimming...
  • and having lizards in our hotel room
  • pottery painting of our very own souvenirs (I painted a cool candle thingy... I'll take a pic and share later)
  • shopping! (less than expected but still... I admit it, I have a shopping problem. I'm working on it)
More goodness? Photo sneak peaks:

All in all, it was a blast and even though it was full of heavy emotions and and that stuff, it was what we both needed at this moment in time. Isn't life funny how it works out? Sometimes the gods are there for us even when we don't even know we need them.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

pagan art journaling {week 32}

this week's prompt: inspiration

There's just something about a rainy day for me. Maybe it's because I'm a wet west coaster, but rain is soothing and makes me think. I love it. My best ideas come to me on quiet, rainy days.

There are lots of things that inspire me, but rainy days in the fall are my favourite. They make me stop and think and ground myself again.

What about you? What inspires you creatively and spiritually?