This week’s prompt: prayers and spells
What do you think: are prayers and spells different from one another? Is one more effective than the other? Do they work together? Separately?
Here are some of my thoughts:
this week’s prompt: best lesson(s) from family and how it affects your path
Before I go on, I would like to make the following disclaimer: families aren’t easy. Mine isn’t, yours probably isn’t, but inevitably they influence who we become.
Recent conversations with friends who have family situations that are “easier” than mine (wee bit of context: 1 divorce, 1 remarriage, 1 adoption, foster kids= 4 siblings with 2 mothers and 4 different fathers)… anyways, friends who have had relatively “normal” family environments have revealed that they have few if any positive memories of family.
I personally have a hard time with this. I’ve watched kids come through my home who have gone through the worst of the worst in terms of abuse and neglect, I’ve spent countless hours slamming doors and arguing with my parents, and we don’t keep in touch very well, but I have always cherished the good memories that I have from my family. Maybe this is because I grew up aware of what others didn’t have, or because it’s a defense mechanism to block out the bad memories I have, but I think that the average individual who grows up in an “average, moderately fucked up, but normal” family, should be able to celebrate the things that family has given them.
Hence this week’s prompt. I’ve already talked about the greatest gift my mom gave me in terms of spiritual freedom, so I tried to take it a step further and think about how I apply the morality that I was raised with into my current practices. My parents taught us to be independent and to follow our own paths, they allowed us to grow and be who we are without being overly attached to their visions of what they needed us to be (sometimes they were better than others at this, sometimes not…) But for me, as I work on my meditation practice as a tool to distinguish between what is a reaction and illusion based on the reaction, and what is really happening around me, this lesson of letting others be who they are without imposing my will on them, has been invaluable.
I’m explaining this as well as I’d like, but hopefully you’ll catch my meaning as it is.
I know that life isn’t all about light and happiness, so maybe there are lessons you’ve learned from your family that stem from the darkness. I know I have. Hell, just above I was mentioning that I saw kids from really messed up situations walk through our doors on a regular basis, and honestly, I learned a lot about gratitude from the experience.
But I’ve also learned a lot from other familial challenges, like doing the work even when others give up, like respecting boundaries and need for privacy, like being open to others even when they seem standoffish and need time, all of which effects my path and my choices on it.
Today the moon enters virgo, so since I’m on a lunar kick at the moment, I did another page about it:
With of course, the pre-requisite blank spaces so that I can go in and add more observations over the course of a couple moons in virgo so I can make connections about what a virgo moon means for me, the capricorn.
Eureka! I’ve found my solution for adding information into my scrapbooked book of shadow pages (mentioned this in podcast #2)
Blank squares for more information!
I’m not normally drawn to lavender or baby pastel colours, but I chose it because they are the colours associated with Taurus, or at least they are in my astrology book.
this week’s prompt: fear
What do you fear on this path? What things give you pause and make you wonder about paganism with apprehension? What things have you experimented with that have given you shivers?
For me, there are a lot of things on this path that I fear. Oh, don’t get me wrong, overall I love this path and all the wonderful things it brings to my life.
But I do have fears. I fear the idea that maybe this is all an illusion. That maybe I took too many drugs as a teen and now what I think I am seeing and experiencing is all just a series of well disguised flashbacks or wishful thinking. I fear that maybe, just maybe, I might be a little bit crazy! And that pathwork, which opens me up to so many things, might be opening me up a bit too much…
That maybe, by opening the floodgates, I won’t always be able to control (or be equipped to deal with) what comes my way.
Or, on the other end of the spectrum, that my fears and need for a safety net will prevent me from opening up to experience some of the greater gifts and truths that are out there.
Mostly though, I fear the what if, what if, what if…