You know the line: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger? Yeah, I can't say that I love that quote but in all honesty, I believe that it can be all too true. As someone who always just seems to have to learn things the hard way, more often than I care to admit, I really find myself reminded regularly that its in those dark nights of the soul that I find my spirituality/path the most important.
And yet, if you're like me, sometimes those dark times are the times when we are the most likely to drop the things that actually nurture us.
Stressed? Of course I know doing yoga or exercise will help. But no. I'm the queen of actually making it worse and eating unhealthily, hibernating in my home, and worrying. More often than not, I make the journey harder than it needs to be by losing sight of what helps the most.
This was recently reaffirmed, in a very positive way lately, when I was freaking out about the latest drama in my life, making a mountain out of a molehill as it were, and struggling to find the right way to address the situation and correct it. But because I couldn't find my voice, I said nothing. And here's the irony. In saying nothing I was actually able to give myself the space and time I needed to actually act constructively instead of just reacting emotionally.
All the angst and woe settled and in time I was able to see the situation more clearly and holistically in terms of multiple perspectives. And then I was able to navigate it better than I would have when I felt like the issue was pressing and NEEDED to be taken care of IMMEDIATELY.
When I did act, I was surprised by the strength and clarity of my actions. I was pleased to be able to feel fair minded and sure of the rightness of my actions. And I was super proud of myself for being a bigger hearted person than I tend to give myself credit for, which was pretty awesome.
I don't know about the rest of you, but sometimes those moments of duress have taught me the biggest life lessons. Like how to be forgiving, how to accept that my needs and views are not the only ones, and that sometimes there is a big difference between what you need and want! Those moments have also taught me that I'm stronger than I tend to think or that I am more flexible in terms of my thoughts than I assumed.
I think that lives that have never faced challenge never have the opportunity to learn how much more they can be in terms of their strength. And yet, when we have the opportunity to move past what is often self-destructive behaviour (ex, not going to yoga class when stressed), we can often find that we are wells of unexpected strength. While I might not like those moments of darkness, I cherish the lessons they have taught me.*
*(now don't be getting the wrong idea universe. I am NOT asking for more lessons...)