And with that comes the big reveal of my word for 2013, because really, to me at least, the above quote just encapsulates a little of what I'm looking for this year: story. This year my goal is to create stories in my life that reflect the life I aspire to live and the person I aspire to be.
When I went home in November, I had a bit of a life freak out as I pondered fertility issues, the fact that 26 is just around the corner, and that I'm living a very traditional life in surburbia. I have always been someone who defined herself, to some extent, as being a person who doesn't follow the beaten path and yet, in many ways over the course of the last 7 years as I've settled into career and marriage, I feel like the beaten path has become all to easy and comfortable to fall into.
Ironically, the issue that prompted this re-evaluation was a fertility issue that was at the time actually becoming a moot point. Now however, the questions that I was asking myself then and the reality that I'm facing this year begs the question even more: how do I continue to live a life that is true to me, my aspirations, and the life I want to create for myself and my little family?
So I chose story as my word because I want to remember to get off the beaten track and back to my true self. Sometimes it'll be easy and be a matter of making simple changes like setting up a compost bin this summer and choosing the eco bamboo flooring when we finish the basement. Other times it'll be fun, like remembering to get out, big prego belly and all, to see live shows in local venues so that we don't get caught in the boring married people rut.
But other times I know I'm going to struggle more, sometimes because I'm struggling to force myself out of my comfort zone and other times because it's going to mean more conflict between me and the world my husband's family lives in. But such is life and a life worth living, as far as I'm concerned, is full of bumps, curves, and leaps of faith. And more so now than ever, I think it is so important for me to remember to walk the talk and create a place in the world that reflects the person I want to be and the type of person I want to raise.
So story, here I come and I think it's going to be great! Because let's face it, this year is about choosing not to settle for anything less than a life story that is quirky and wonderful!