Monday, July 29, 2013

52 weeks of art journaling: week 26

This week's prompt: Next Step

What is the next step for you in your practice?

I have good intuition, not that you'd know that by meeting me or listening to me talk. I'm an over-analyzer. And let me tell you, over-analysis is the death knoll of intuition!

All my life I have been told that I'm an excellent judge of character. There is nothing behind this skill that I can explain. I just know. I have a good radar. I give people a chance. But don't get me wrong, when you meet me I'm not going to come across as this open hearted, warm person. Most people find me very aloof when they meet me. So it's not a skill that has made me a better person or has enriched my life per se. I write this because I want it to be clear that I'm not trying to boast.

It is what it is. And it's a skill that I struggle with a lot, actually, because of my analytical nature. I can be a jarring blend of leaping based on gut instincts, and dissecting things to their minute last detail, to the point of leaving your head spinning.

So why am I telling you all this? Because working on trusting my intuition is something that has been a process for me. Right now, trusting my intuition means that I am working on my ability to guess what image is on the other side of the card through my ability to sense and decode what I'm sensing. I find the need to shift between analysis and intuition in this process to be incredibly frustrating but invigorating at the same time. I'm working on trying to find the line between where one skill set steps in and the other steps out. And let me tell you, the line isn't a clear one.

What I am learning though, is that the longer I sit with something, the more likely I am to cross the line. My initial, first impressions, though murky, can only be pushed so far for clarity before I fall into over thinking things. If I can't make sense of something quickly in my intuitive work, time will not make it better. At least not at this stage of my practice. I am however, noticing that the more I work on it, the longer I seem to be able to maintain the balance between the two, which makes it a very rewarding practice for me because it is teaching me a lot about my own nature as well as my magical practice.

What skill/step are you wanting to work on?


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