I only started in week 5, but I knew going in that this was likely to be the case. Last week I wrote about motherhood and the choice to be or not to be. This week I went a little simpler with a page about gratitude, something that very much ties into things I like to talk about in this space, so I thought I'd share it. You know, just cause I'm a sharing kind of gal:
I'm actually trying to use up things that I never use but have in my stash because of kits or gifts, hence the orange and wood grain, which are trendy but not really my thing per se. You know?
The last few weeks have been a rough transition, full of ups and downs that have brought out the best and worst of me. Somewhere along the way, because of the chaos, I've stopped remembering to take time to jot down at least one thing that I'm grateful for. And let's face it, that's totally ok given where I'm at and even before Baby Faye came around, my entries were a little lackluster because the scope of my world had narrowed down so much while I hovered around home, huge, ripe and waiting for his arrival.
I haven't started writing things down again, but I am getting back into the headspace of trying to remember to be more grateful. In hard times like these, gratitude is sometimes what makes the difference between seeing the glass half empty or half full. Lately I've had too many half empty days. It's time to change that.
So what are you grateful today?
Today I'm grateful for:
- Dancing to the Pixies with my son as I bounced him to sleep (Monkey gone to Heaven is surprisingly a bounce friend dance song).
- Finally figuring out what the little hut in the middle of no where is for (it's a pee/lunch break spot for city bus drivers)
- That I have done 2 days of exercise (walking and crunches etc.).
- Mr Faye is out buying groceries and being a supportive baby daddy/husband
- That after a few rough days, Baby Faye is sleeping and eating well today
- The fact that I'm starting to take steps that widen the scope of my baby mama world... listening to podcasts, reading blogs again, chatting with new friends, having people over and actually venturing out to see others. It's big. I don't do stay at home well. It's going to be a long year and I can tell it's vital for me to get out and about for my mental health.
And finally.... that I've had a chance to visit this space again. It feels like it's been a while.