As always, as the summer months approach, life starts feeling a little more hectic. Like we rush towards activities while the sun is out and hibernate at home during the long winter months.
We're slowly working on spending more time outside, enjoying the patio/yard. I'm dreaming of gardening projects but accepting that this might not be in the cards this year as Baby Faye is keeping us busy in other areas of life. And let's face it, gardening takes time and energy that I don't feel like I have at this point.
So we're growing lettuce and tomatoes on the balcony. We'll see how they do. Hoping they're low maintenance.
Started reading Dion Fortune's Applied Magic. I'm a bit slow going (all reading is slower these days) but I actually think it's good when it comes to esoteric readings because it gives me more time to mull over an idea. Right now I'm reading her article "The Occult Way" about the difference between the Mystic's path being one of searching for god in essence (thus, the big guy in the sky kind of deal that prompts us to work on freeing ourselves from the material realm) vs the other path, which seeks god manifest (thus, in you and me, and the idea of experiencing life and mastering the tools that are here for us). It's funny, my immediate reaction to the idea of god manifest when proposed this way, is to shy away from it because it seems to advocate a hedonistic approach to life and I think that the lingering trappings of my Christian upbringing still make me feel a bit guilty about such a lifestyle. But, that's not what she's advocating at all. In fact, in some way, her manifested experience path, seems more challenging (in that it's a less traveled path not because one is actually any harder than the other, just different). God manifested seems challenging not only because it demands a certain amount of self discipline and work that we only tend to associate with the path of renunciation (god in essence) but also because society doesn't really necessarily value or create space for said work/mastery within a spiritual context.
We create (as a society) space for the mastery of academic or professional knowledge, but not necessarily for esoteric knowledge. If I were to tell friends I was going back for a 2nd masters, this time in Education, they'd all be supportive. But if I were to tell them that I was going to spend a year studying the Tarot, not so much. Especially if I were paying money for it.
Odd isn't it when you think about it?
Why is one type of mastery more socially acceptable? Or valued?
While this is not necessarily where she's going with the article, it has definitely prompted my thoughts along this path. At times it seems odd that my studies along this path have prompted reactions because they require a certain amount of time and discipline that has taken me away from my every day activities and made me less available to friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about this. It is part of my journey and I made the decision to embrace it and reap the challenges and rewards that go along with it. And honestly, the commitments are minor compared to some of those made by others around me.
What I'm curious about is how we create space to master such workings as part of our spiritual engagement, in the face of criticism, backlash, or pressure from the world around us, particularly when we tend to walk the less trodden paths so the world around us doesn't see taking time to work on your esoteric 'masteries' as being a priority.
I suppose, on some level, these questions/answers are dependent on the circles you frequent! Some of my friends totally get it, whereas others, not so much. :P
I don't have an answer for these musings, just pondering what they mean along the way. I don't really know that there is a uniform answer anyways. As always, these things are on a case by case basis, dependent on the lives we live individually and where we are along the way.